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Something I thought I should say to you folks.
cheetahben:
At one point, I was a very regular CQFF member and have more recently been very on-again off-again about it, only showing up and lurking on occasions when I'm really bored. I mainly left because the community started to grow lackluster and it seemed as though everything that was posted was the same thing. Things got too predictable for me to really enjoy myself on the forums. As of this post I'll try to start coming back here again.
Since a fairly young age, about sixth or seventh grade (I'm currently a sophomore in high school), I noticed quite a few differences in myself. I was more sensitive to my own feelings and was more observant about other people. Though I was (and still am) very shy, I learned a lot about people without ever talking to them.
In the past few years when I was gone, I discovered a lot about myself. I suffer from depression, forms of anxiety, Asperger's disorder, and high-performing autism. I practiced the LDS religion, more commonly known as "Mormonism." Over the last year, I have made the decision to not only abandon this religion, but to also practice atheism...a big no-no in a family like mine.
I also made friends for the first time in my life within choir. I became very devoted to singing and choir, and plan to major in Vocal Performance when I go to college in the future. I can't think of anything else that I enjoy more than learning about and performing music. Half the reason I enjoy these activities so much is the companionship that I have found in these groups that just lack elsewhere.
All of these events aside, here is the bombshell I made this thread for.
I'm gay.
I've identified as gay for about six months at this point. I came out to my parents on October 14, neither of them taking it well. My dad refused to talk to me and still doesn't enjoy talking to me; my mom got scarily violent to degrees I didn't know she was capable of. I came out to my friends a few months later before Christmas.
My parents have hardly been empathetic. I've been sent to "pray the gay away" therapy, I've been told that I was just "confused," I've been told that I can get over this and still be straight. Fortunately, none of this has worked.
My friends are at the opposite end of the spectrum. The majority of my friends are straight and male, and they all took it well (in fact, one of them even kissed me). I still hang out with all of them today, and nothing is really brought up about my sexuality. Sure, there's teasing, but it's all in good fun. They still know I'm the same weird, head-in-the-clouds person they thought was straight when they first met me. I just don't like girls.
While I'm just skimming the tip of the iceberg here, I thought I would just let everyone know about me. I'm still the same kid that likes to play TF2 with you guys and other such things.
That's all.
TL;DR I'm gay, I've been out for six months now.
Kuwabara:
Eh, no need to excuse your absence. Members come and go as they please.
As for everything else, I already knew. ;)
Allen Walker:
Well, as you said, you are still the same guy who plays TF2 and whatnot. Nice to see you post again, Ben. Hope things start to work out.
LAZ Trooper:
noob1234:
Cool! No need to hide your feelings.
And as a side note, is the atheism because of not liking organized religion because of the not endorsing homosexuality thing, or just because you don't believe in a higher being? Just wonderin'
Anyways, keep having fun with life and lots of luck with your parents
And about popping in and out: Yeah, I do that too LOLz.
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